A lover of the roaring silences in life .... and passion for journaling about the minutiae of food, fitness & life...
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
To Hog Island and Back
My mind is constantly thinking about women-only triathlons to find, races & century events to put on my calendar. I love love love love it :-)
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Fish Tonight
Weekend includes a mongo mileage walk with Awesome and 9-10 miler on Sunday. Next week: big bike tour on Monday (miles & hills), Tuesday light run and/or crankcycle or Ujams, Wednesday open water swim, Thursday crank or Ujams...then off to camp for 3 days. During camping hoping for lots of walks, one run & 2 lake swims. Also a few frosty cones :-)
Big goal next week is the Ujams extreme Zumba & Crankcycle. Getting out of my comfort zone & GOING! Also an SR cycle ride soon & solo ride (eek).
Core training for stomach & arms. Did a Brady Bunch workout on Wednesday & stomach still feeling sore which is rad & exactly what it needs!
Have loved the Mermaid email traffic, so many great ladies. I've discovered their blogs (fab) and hooked up with an SF Aquatics buddy I hope! Fitness rocks & makes you great new lady fitness friends I love it!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Very Hot & Pretty Cool
Chilled on the beach a few minutes, Blondie fueled with PB sandwich (my belly was filled with an egg bagel from earlier, great choice) and we chatted about how RAD it felt to be out there DOING this stuff. Walked the good distance to car & changed for riding. Tackled some nifty climbs, we were both hurting from 9 mile runs the previous day & a full week of training. Soooo crazy hot on the ride, sweat & salt coating the bod, felt fabulous. I nearly rode over Blondie on my quest to get away from what I swear was a mountain lion rummaging in the bushes near the road on a climb. Blondie laughed so hard as she said it was most likely a deer or a squirrel...I'm not so sure! Got my adrenaline pumping big time!
After the swim & ride we had lunch at Dry Creek store, best ever. Just chilling out while drinking Dr.Pepper, eating deli sandwiches & salted caramels. Life is pretty damn sweet, you won't catch me complaining one bit.
*Thought of Triple A girlie who i'll call 'Babe' who wranked her toe something awful last night & is waiting to hear if it is broken and obviously couldn't join today :-( Injury can happen at any minute in life and/or training. Gotta just enjoy the ride while we can, it's fleeting...
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Kicking It
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Capitola & Mermaid ROCK the casbah
Clinic by Mermaid and Coach Heidi was AMAZING. About 45 women, all shapes & sizes and abilities (*except a few rock stars, more on those ladies later). Not sure if it was pms, nerves or the full moon but I was teary-eyed more than a few times during the clinic. Heidi is so inspirational and motivating, so focused on "YOU can and you WILL do this!" I love that attitude. So first off we got in our wetsuits and hit the water right away, which I loved since I didn't know if I could absorb the course material on Triathlon 101 if the 'swim' was looming before me. We did two loops around someone out about 50 ft on a paddle board to get comfortable and I was nervous because those two 'practice' laps were pretty good for me but we hadn't even really started yet! YIKERS!
Overall, I did all right. I was in the back of the front of the pack and was relatively calm through the swim. Before we got in the water my heart was beating out of my chest, for no specific reason. I wasn't entirely focused on sharks (Damn Shark Week on Discovery channel!), or the oodles of kelp, or the looooooong distance it looked like around the pier and back to the beach (although only 400 yards, a short distance for swimmers but a long distance for regular folks like myself). I was just nervous in general! During the swim I was very envious of the ladies who put their heads down and just SWAM, easily it seemed... how I swim when I am at the gym in the lap pool, calm, cool, relaxed...that's how some of them swam the practice, it is NOT how I swam. I did half the course as lifeguard swim (head out of water) and the other half on my back. I could not just chill out and swim like I do at the gym. So overall I did all right, got it done, didn't hate it but didn't love it either. Before we got in the water Heidi talked to us and I was so teary, she was talking to us like a 'team' although I knew no one there, we had all just met. She said we would feel uncomfortable in the water, scared, nervous, overwhelmed and that was all OK~like yoga, just sit in the uncomfortable zone and let it be. That this was all new to us and if we were pro ocean swimmers, we would not be in this clinic. She was righteous. She made it OK to feel exactly how I felt.
When I got out of the water my mom was there watching, all giddy and happy. Even though she drove to the clinic with me I was sure she would go shopping or something but nope, she just sat and watched. It was awesome. She was so proud. It felt like an 'event' vs a training clinic, it was really grand to share it with mom. We toweled off and sat in our chairs and discussed triathlon 101, a lot I knew from my sprint in Alameda but I learned a lot too and took notes (NTS: get water shoes, it's a healthy 400 yard walk/run to transition on sand & pavement!). It felt good to hear Heidi talk about the hills for the bike and how some folks have to walk their bike (some ladies looked nervous, especially the one who admitted her bike was from Toys R Us) and I was chill & thinking "Dude, my Triple A ladies and I eat hills for breakfast every Tuesday to Dillion Beach on our rides." It felt great to know "I've got this" as far as the bike & run portion go. Easy? No, but I got game in those areas and I love that feeling of confidence.
So I may have changed my tune for the Mighty Mermaid in September and right now I feel unsettled. I can either forge ahead and do the mighty (.9 mile swim) or switch to the Sprint (400 yard swim, the one I just did at the clinic). The only bummer is that the bike and run portions for sprint are significantly less than the mighty and I was really looking forward to challenging myself on those portions since the sprint distance of Alameda was do-able and I even had energy reserves. The swim portion though...I am not sure. The Mighty is advertised for those who may need something 'MORE' than the sprint overall, or if they have already 'mastered' the sprint...but I have only done ONE sprint triathlon in my life! ONE! Mastered? Ummmm....nope!
When I signed up for the Mighty length months ago I had visions of training like a maniac and being this amazing powerhouse of fitness and strength and confidence to accomplish a triathlon...and I AM all of those things right now. I feel great, I am in amazing shape, am getting stronger everyday. I have HUGE goals for myself that range from vanity (2-4pk ab muscles & sculpted arms) to insane (having the physical endurance and concentration to run an Ultra). I just don't know if I can or want to swim .9 miles in the OCEAN. I respect the hell out of rock climbers & huge white water rafters, their skill & determination but I never want to do those things, like ever. So things may change over time for me but for now, if/when I train for an Ironman or Barbs Race, you better bet it will be in a LAKE environment and not the ocean, even Hawaii :-)
At the clinic, some of the ultra buff/tough looking ladies there were the 'pro' swimmers helping guide us through the swim clinic and...they were swimming the mighty distance of .9 AFTER they did the 400 yd swim with us. GULP. Heidi asked if I wanted to swim it with them after the 400 yd practice to know the mighty course and I was all "ummmm yeah, probably not today." My brain was screaming "WAIT! Those ladies are swimming with me, then .9 again easily and they are the ones doing the event on the day of the triathlon? I am so out of my league here!" I didn't feel down or depressed or bad for being out of my league, it was just a gut reaction of "I am not ready for this part" which is a big thing for me to admit. It is also hard for me to admit I might not ever be ready to swim a mile in the ocean. I can swim in a pool or lake (thank you Lake Sonoma) no problem. If this Mighty were in a lake, dude, no worries I would push myself to do the mile swim, I would get through it. I just have a deeply held anxiety about the ocean & I did not know this until I TRIED, which is awesome in itself that I am out there doing things that help me discover my fears/anxieties.
I asked Coach Heidi about it "I can swim an hour or more in the lap pool, I can swim no problem in a lake but in the ocean I lose it and can not get in the groove. I can bust through the 400yds with pure grit but a mile seems LONG to not be in the groove." She agreed, she was very supportive and encouraging "You need to be swimming a mile in the pool 3 times a week minimum to get core strength for this and you need one swim a week in open water, preferably in the OCEAN if that's your anxiety trigger." So there you have it. I know if I lived closer I would be doing that 400 yd ocean swim at Capitola every weekend to see if I can kick my ocean anxiety (some of the ladies are doing it and I am jealous!) but I don't live there. I can do SF aquatic park a few times and I will. I will happily swim once a week in Lake Sonoma for an hour, no problem. Yet, none of that may help me at GO time for the Mighty in 6 weeks. I don't even know if I would sign up for anything over 400yds in the ocean in the future, I just don't know if it is my cup of tea. I can grin & bear it for 400yds and even finish in the front of the pack but it is not without it's energy sucking anxiety, before & during the event, which is no party & not why I do this fitness gig in the first place. I thought about my friend Jessica who has done a lot of sprint triathlons recently, not sure how she feels about ocean swimming but I think she has the sprint experience to push her to the mighty level and right now I don't know if I am ready for that 'push' with only one Tri under my belt. So I feel unsettled but not in a bad way, just a pondering way.
I felt like I was 10 feet tall after the Alameda Tri & after my Portland marathon. I felt so amazed at my own prowess and fitness and ability to be out THERE and DO something. I know that I will feel that same way after the Mighty or the Sprint, I just need to decide which level I want to do for ME & what will be the most FUN not only during the event but the weeks leading up to it. Since that's really one of the main reasons I do all this stuff, run, bike, swim...it really is a total blast of FUN and makes me crazy wicked happy & if it didn't, I wouldn't be doing it.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Inspired to the nth degree...
Anyone can do an Ironman...
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
River Days break
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Slooooow Jams
Yesterday ran the treadmill, boo. Yeah for 2hrs of kiddo playcare though! I did realize I have been running too slow on the treadmill, hence boredom. I cranked it to 9:13 min miles & really enjoyed it (as much as a hamster can enjoy). Also did a 3% hill grade at 9:40 for 10 minutes, tidy little workout, proud of myself for pushing it.
Today swam 30 min, slow and not in the zone but got it done. Tonight aiming for 30 min run to stretch the legs.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
In the groove
Made great food choices today, said no to cheese & meat on a huge half veggie sandwich. Said yes to a tiny frozen yogurt with the dude. Made a huge dinner of: Amys vegan chili, Tri color cabbage & carrot slaw, avocado & mango! So tasty & hearty.
Thoughts today center on feeling...chill & balanced. Let things go, let things flow. Make lists & be prepared but be ok if I don't check everything off. Motivate myself to create my home in the reflection of Us. Clean out, make space, live simple & BE content. Stop focusing on the BIG things and be thrilled with all the small wonders of a single day~there are so many.
New kickers came today.....zoooooom!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Schooled
Last week was late night binge madness. Husband was away so I stayed up until 1am watching bad tv & eating Triscuits & cheese. Each morning I had a sleep & salt hangover~ick. When I eat dirty I feel dirty but when I eat clean I feel light, lean & good, I need to remember that at midnight!
Took a fantastic 6 miler today & pondered all my goals, near & far away:
Lose 15 lbs to make running easier & lighter
Gain 5lbs or more of muscle
Strengthen core big time
Shape arms into awesomeness
Stretch & PT until ankles feel like gold
Eat clean
Sleep better
Clean out the house & revamp it to fit our active lifestyle
Fall half marathons & century rides
60 mile Tuesdays
Mighty Mermaid
Maui Marathon
Napa Valley Marathon
Avenue if the Giants Marathon
Death Ride
Terrible Two
Barbs Race
SF Marathon Full
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Summertime and the posting is...lazy
- Run, log more miles. Follow Galloway method
- Bike, join SR cycle group for rides when triple A ladies can't.
- Swim, MORE
- UJam, GO
- Crankcycle, GO
- Watch diet, no junk. High fiber, High protein, Low sugar, Vegan-ish
- Core strength, Fonda
- Choose some fall fun runs and centuries
- Sleep more
- Hydrate more, diversify water if needed (Nuun)
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Quiet
Last night I had a bad dream about my bike, it kept disintegrating and falling apart. I was on a century tour with my dad and a few other random friends kept coming in & out of the dream, we were in a hotel room that turned into a water slide (so odd) but the overall feeling was unhappiness that every time I looked at my bike the wheel or fork or seat was twisted or mushy/melting. I woke with the realization of how much I am loving biking. I am of course watching hours of Tour coverage a day so I am sure that is a big influence too but....overall my love for biking and my ladies Triple A group of riding & open water swimming has given me a HUGE passion for activity lately. When I was camping for a week, it felt like I was gone for sooooooo long, I think partly because I missed two Saturday century rides my friends did. I was so glad to be camping & relaxing with the family but a big part of me was missing that exhilaration & bonding you get on a century ride. Chatted with my ladies today about it and I was so happy & proud to see them shining & beaming about the ride, I love seeing that. Just love it.
SO many things I want to do lately and not enough time to fit it all in. Between Santa Cruz Mighty mermaid in September and Maui marathon in January, it isn't possible to fit in this 3 day ride in Santa Barbara but oh man, I really wish I could and am inspired to get it on the calendar for next year for sure:
Young Survivors Coalition Ride
So many things to ponder & DO....excited, motivated, inspired...but for today~happily quiet :-)
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Busy
Spent a lot of vacation pondering running, triathlons, and missing my weekly triple A bike ride. Felt good to be so consumed with fitness thoughts. I also felt groovy in my swimsuit, I'm not perfect & my thighs are far from photo-shoot ready but I'm comfortable in my skin. That is very relaxing to me.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Camping & Training
See ya in a week!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Feeling Life...
I have done one of their sprint Tri's and it was fantastic. I am registered for a Tri clinic, Santa Cruz Tri & also their SF run. A very inspiring series of events for women.
Click the link below to look at the events they offer:
Mermaid Series
Feeling Life, Not Just Moving Through It
Feeling uncomfortable is not a popular state of mind and I have many friends who think it's crazy when I push myself physically to states of discomfort that they think are unnatural.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Kenwood 10k
A friend called me on my Fonda today, I need to be doing them. I'm not. It's like wanting to run a marathon but never doing the long runs, not gonna work. NEED to do the Fonda!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Metric Century & Maui Marathon
The day was long but the metric century was very do-able and I felt great....until I had to literally crawl out of bed the following morning. SORE! Wow! Walked 4 miles after the century and then another 3 miles the next morning and I think that really helped but wow, my body sure felt the workout from those rolling gentle hills. Took a 4.5 mile run through Spring Lake on Monday and after the first 5 min of working out the kinks felt great. Thank you body for doing such a great job, I will continue to take care of you & push you to do more...and do my stretching & Fonda!
Next up on the goal list after a summer & fall of half marathons and triathlons is....MAUI MARATHON in January! WOWZERS! A girlfriend asked me last week over a chat, if I would at all consider doing the marathon with her as part of a mini girl vacation...as she was asking, I heard the words Marathon & Maui & January and although my brain was saying things like "I will need to ask husband of course and coordinate kiddo care and ....OMG the training" I heard my mouth blurt out " I am SO there!" ..... I love that I am in a place in my life & personal happiness & confidence that I find myself saying something like that. While my motto for 2011 has been "why not me?" in reference to pushing myself to bike farther, run stronger & swim with sharks & zombies, "I am SO there!' is apparently my motto for 2012 and I like it. It's a feeling that is hard to describe: pure joy, peace, centered-ness... strength & happiness in both mind & body.
Check out the course map below. Three things I love about it: that the route is all along the ocean (YAHOO), the dancing palm trees at the top, and the fact that there is no longer a 20-miler course offered? Dude, if you were going to do 20 miles, just do 26.2 already!
Course map of goodness, so excited:
Maui Marathon 2012
