A lover of the roaring silences in life .... and passion for journaling about the minutiae of food, fitness & life...

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Good Eats

Chicken salad, apple, dried cherries, parsley, almonds.

More...

Had a great breakfast that filled my belly & spiked my BP for sure (salt!) but didn't really eat that much & was still overly full. Not used to such rich food. Reminds me that even tho' I may have a cupcake at 11pm or whatever, my daily diet is pretty clean.  Now I know when I want a really gluttonous and amazing breakfast I can hit Hole in the Wall for mushroom (lots of them) gravy, sinful!

So, I am giving myself a pat on the back. Indulgent breakfast but then I forced a run (3.5), almost puked a few times but so glad I sweat out some sodium & feel better. Whew.

What a process this 'living' dealio is at times, it's like a daily thing :-)

Foiled again!

Cupcake. Late. Night.
Not feeling bad about it.
Just starting anew.
Guilt over food, gets me nowhere.
Feeling bad about eating sugar or fake frosting is not how I want to spend the precious moments of my life.
I'll just move extra today. I can do that.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Lake Sonoma day AAA

Weight 160's
Sleep, not enough. My fault.

Lake Sonoma day with AAA...been months! Gorgeous ride thru vineyards, bliss. Lake swim. Chilly bliss. Soul chats, fantastic.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Awareness

Weighed myself today
Thought about conscious eating
Tried to make good food choices (potato & chicken dog...could have been better!)
Totally aware of cupcake & ice cream stress/boredom eating this eve

Short 40 min run
Lap swim 40 min

Feeling good. Need to hydrate a lot more.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Project

ME Project:

Two Months
July 14, Death Ride Date Goal

Daily posting
Daily weigh-in*
Daily food journal**
Daily/weekly fitness goals
Sleep commitment
Stretching commitment


*I'm not a scale person, hardly ever weigh in. Not because I hate the scale, I am just usually so active I don't care what the scale says. I've stayed the same range for about 2yrs (went up during marathon training & down with Vegan phase). Lately I care about the numbers. I know I have muscle (weighs more than fat I know, I know) I didn't have 2yrs ago but...I'm still NOT happy lately: in my skin, pictures, fitness level, in clothes, flexibility...and the scale. So I will be using the scale.

**I am terrible at food journals, awful. I blame it on laziness but really I'm secretly terrified of accountability I think. We'll see. I was great during Vegan phase, I'm think fear of accountability when I have something to be accountable for!

More to come....